FREEDOM OF CHOICE
Sep. 20th, 2004 01:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
davecobbDevo kicked serious ass this past weekend at the KROQ "Inland Invasion" concert. Schooled everyone. Fucking amazing performance.
So amazing that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
umkinda and I decided to leave on a high after their set, missing some other bands that the lovely and talented keanubear can tell you all about.
So now I'm at work, trying to make a personal decision about something. Nothing earth-shattering, mind you. It's just something that I've done a bunch of my typical worrying and thinking about -- so pardon my comment-whore-dom by asking y'all for a third-party view.
As many of you know, I sing with the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles. I've taken two concerts off, with the intent of eventually going back. Well, the time to go back is now, and I'm torn.
Mostly, I've *relished* the free time while being away from GMCLA. Monday's usual rehearsal nights are Jason's "Friday Night", so it's nice to spend time with him and not have to worry about him going to work the next AM.
I've also started doing some improv classes every Wednesday night, which is a whole other creative performance outlet that I'm enjoying immensely -- and it's actually what's caused me to think twice about going back to sing with GMCLA. I'm not sure I want to overload myself by taking on Monday night rehearsals again -- yet I know I'll miss the chorus, because I've gotten a lot out of it over the years.
I love the chorus, and I love the collaborative group effort and the gay "mission" of it all. And there's some great material coming up, including a concert at the Disney Hall and a show with Lily Tomlin next spring. I'd also been trying to put together another pop-music-themed show (80s/90s music, or gay pop artists) along the lines of the Elton John show I helped create with them a few years ago.
But I can't escape this tiny feeling that I've gotten what I can out of the GMCLA experience already -- and that I maybe wouldn't be able to add much more. Has this part of my "gay life" already run its course?
The answer, of course, is simple. Go with my heart. But my heart is a bit in both places.
So amazing that
umkinda and I decided to leave on a high after their set, missing some other bands that the lovely and talented keanubear can tell you all about.So now I'm at work, trying to make a personal decision about something. Nothing earth-shattering, mind you. It's just something that I've done a bunch of my typical worrying and thinking about -- so pardon my comment-whore-dom by asking y'all for a third-party view.
As many of you know, I sing with the Gay Men's Chorus of Los Angeles. I've taken two concerts off, with the intent of eventually going back. Well, the time to go back is now, and I'm torn.
Mostly, I've *relished* the free time while being away from GMCLA. Monday's usual rehearsal nights are Jason's "Friday Night", so it's nice to spend time with him and not have to worry about him going to work the next AM.
I've also started doing some improv classes every Wednesday night, which is a whole other creative performance outlet that I'm enjoying immensely -- and it's actually what's caused me to think twice about going back to sing with GMCLA. I'm not sure I want to overload myself by taking on Monday night rehearsals again -- yet I know I'll miss the chorus, because I've gotten a lot out of it over the years.
I love the chorus, and I love the collaborative group effort and the gay "mission" of it all. And there's some great material coming up, including a concert at the Disney Hall and a show with Lily Tomlin next spring. I'd also been trying to put together another pop-music-themed show (80s/90s music, or gay pop artists) along the lines of the Elton John show I helped create with them a few years ago.
But I can't escape this tiny feeling that I've gotten what I can out of the GMCLA experience already -- and that I maybe wouldn't be able to add much more. Has this part of my "gay life" already run its course?
The answer, of course, is simple. Go with my heart. But my heart is a bit in both places.
